Love works in nonsense way...and sometimes it hurts..

when you love be ready for the possibilities of so many disappointments, especially if that person does not feel the same way..

but no matter how disappointed I am, I can't feel anger towards him and I hate myself for that...
as a matter of fact I think I am becoming used to disappointments when it comes to him. why I can't just be angry and forget my feelings?

is this the thing called KARMA? now I understand how they feels.. but can you blame me? that person is the reason why I ignored them...
I first like him, I like him even before I started to know what liking means..I just did and I can't understand.. and I still have no idea why I still like him.. for so many years I'm still clueless..

I always ask myself..bakit nga ba gusto ko sya? dahil matalino? marami namang matalino..Mabait? maraming mas mabait na pahahalagahan ako.. good looking? he's good looking pero di yun qualification para sakin..at kahit pumangit pa sya gugustohin ko parin sya, so bakit nga ba? 

I'm just worst when it comes to this matter...I started when I was 14 years old..and I'm already 27 and still liking just one person without any justification in my mind, he doesn't even care and maybe never noticed...

Truly LOVE works in nonsense way...and love hurts.:(

But doesn't 13 years enough?  I'm hurting for so long, I want to forget him!
Should I accept help from others? can't I really forget my feelings without giving my attention to others.. hmmm hard! God help me please., it's really hard.