a very special day for my best

yeeeey! it's my bestriend's birthday! Happy Happy Birthday Best! Thanks be to God for giving you another year of life. Continue to grow by His Grace and be a blessings to everyone. May all your wishes come true and I hope you enjoy this very special day., God set this date just for you.

Please forgive me for all my shortcomings, for hurting you. I wish you happiness today no matter what, even if you're angry with me. I love you.muaah.

the BIRTHDAY celebrant..:)

Highschool Friends Get-together (10 years later)

The Papables :))

The Gorgeous Ladies :D

all so grown-up but still very makulit..:P

it's cold but I want to have a picture in the water..hehe

 ....and this is me just loving and enjoying the night..:)

Love works in nonsense way...and sometimes it hurts..

when you love be ready for the possibilities of so many disappointments, especially if that person does not feel the same way..

but no matter how disappointed I am, I can't feel anger towards him and I hate myself for that...
as a matter of fact I think I am becoming used to disappointments when it comes to him. why I can't just be angry and forget my feelings?

is this the thing called KARMA? now I understand how they feels.. but can you blame me? that person is the reason why I ignored them...
I first like him, I like him even before I started to know what liking means..I just did and I can't understand.. and I still have no idea why I still like him.. for so many years I'm still clueless..

I always ask myself..bakit nga ba gusto ko sya? dahil matalino? marami namang matalino..Mabait? maraming mas mabait na pahahalagahan ako.. good looking? he's good looking pero di yun qualification para sakin..at kahit pumangit pa sya gugustohin ko parin sya, so bakit nga ba? 

I'm just worst when it comes to this matter...I started when I was 14 years old..and I'm already 27 and still liking just one person without any justification in my mind, he doesn't even care and maybe never noticed...

Truly LOVE works in nonsense way...and love hurts.:(

But doesn't 13 years enough?  I'm hurting for so long, I want to forget him!
Should I accept help from others? can't I really forget my feelings without giving my attention to others.. hmmm hard! God help me please., it's really hard.

Birthday sentiment...

I was lying in my bed ready to sleep but I feel like I have to voice it out. The emotion that I'm keeping this past few days. I am hurting right now. I am trying to forget it but I can't. It started when I celebrated my 27th birthday on November 5, he happens to forget it or intentionally did not greet me. You see I like him so much that I never forgot his bday even when we still don't see each other I still remember his birthday. 

We used to not greeting each other, because we were not friends before, but this year I expected to be different. I greeted him on his birthday last month.. I thought he will atleast take an effort to greet me but I was disappointed. Right now I'm thinking maybe he already knew about my feelings and now he is giving me a sign the he really doesn't like me. Well it's pretty good sign and now I already get it. I think I should move on, I will never chase him if that's what he thinks. 

I am hurting in one part but I can still make myself happy with other parts. 

Life must go on. There's so much to be happy.

Love is not a coincidence

Because of My Heart

 I don’t understand

Why it must be you to be the one in my heart

I have met many people

But it must be you eventually who are in my heart

Love is not a coincidence

Love can connect you with me

There’s only the heart that knows

Who is the one in my dream

You’re the one that i’ve been waiting

Because the heart is begging

Cause the heart is calling for

Born to be your forever

It’s because my heart never confused

It’s certain that you are the only one

There are not many reasons

It just because my heart chooses you..

~Crazy Little Thing Called Love~

:: it's been more than a decade but my heart does not change...I'm still waiting, waiting patiently with faith... cause no matter how I tried to forget you, still my heart can only recognize one person, it's only you for almost half of my life...


So happy that after 10 years we met again,  I will not confess my love to you, but I'll try to make you feel how important you are to me.

My First Love Perfume

I never found a cologne that would make me want it badly until I smell  the Bella Belara Eau de Parfum.

I tried different colognes but my interest to any cologne always doesn't last. And I rarely wear one because everytime I do, I feel dizzy. My sense of smell is very sensitive. I hate my brother everytime he sprays his cologne every morning, my head feels heavy that I would collapse anytime.

This morning one of my officemates was selling perfume. I was really not interested to buy until I smell this sweet scent, that is very tempting and makes me crave to smell more. The smell makess me feel happy and I can't help but smile unconsciously. I feel kilig or inlove. This perfume smells good, light, sweet and addicting. So as expected base on my reaction, I bought it without hesitation. I also can't believe myself but I think I found my first love perfume. Bella Belara makes me fall inlove with her (let's just imagine she's a girl..haha) :D

This perfume was described as:

"For the Optimistic Life-Lover. Give her an exuberant floral fruity that is more than just a fragrance - it’s a beautiful feeling."

I think it is really for me, it fits my personality as a very optimistic person, with unbelievably positive perspective in life.
So let's smell good and hope to brighten up someone's life! :D

One Friend

Best thank you for everything you've done for me. You were always there, supporting and loving me but I took you for granted. I want you to know that I really appreciate you, and your efforts. I am sorry for disappointing and hurting you. Take care and I hope you'll always be happy.